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I Can’t Do Mornings, Here’s 5 Reasons Why

If you’re reading this, it’s probably because you asked me to do something early in the morning and I sent you the link. If not then welcome, stay a while, check out my other stuff. No shade, but it’s really exhausting having to remind everyone of it all of the time. It doesn’t upset me, it’s just tiring having to say the same things over and over again. So here we go, 5 reasons why I don’t do mornings.

1. Paralysis – I quite literally can’t get up most of the time

I have Hypokalemic Periodic Paralysis, meaning that it causes periods of weakness and paralysis due to certain triggers. Sleeping and waking is one of them, a major trigger. So upon waking up or being disturbed when I’m in a deep sleep, I can’t move. I can feel and hear everything around me, but I can’t open my eyes or even sit up. From the outside looking in, it may seem like I’m asleep but I’m actually awake and aware of what’s going on.

A lot of times I can recall and repeat to others everything that I happened to overhear that morning. It’s quite funny to see their reactions when they realize that I wasn’t exaggerating, again it looks like I’m sleeping when the paralysis happens so it can be shocking. Sometimes this happens when I’m really tired and nap or take a nap after I crash. After a while all of my functions slowly come back, but not always. Sometimes I just have to go back to sleep.

2. Weakness and Intense Brainfog make it hard to think and otherwise function

If I am able to get up after 30 minutes, an hour, 2 hours, however long it takes for my K+ levels to level out again, I’m still very weak. On top of that, the brain fog is super intense. It gets better as I stay awake longer, but it requires a lot of energy (which I already don’t have a lot of sometimes) and I’ll eventually run out of gas.

3. It’s Exhausting

Everything takes ten times more energy than usual. Things that I can usually do without effort like thinking, moving around, making decisions, and speaking, takes conscious effort. After a few hours I crash and run out of energy. The more energy that I use, the more quickly I crash.

4. Recovering Sucks

It takes a few days or even a week to recover. It takes longer than a coupe days if I was on the go or stressed or triggered by something else. The first day afterwards, I leaves me feeling hungover, sometimes with aches and pains. I usually don’t do much of anything besides sleep for long periods of time over a couple of days.

5. It’s not worth the effort most of the time (although I do make exceptions in certain occasions)

It’s a really unpleasant process to say the least. Not to mention time consuming having to wait for the paralysis to subside. Then there’s the time it takes to eat, get dressed, shower, do my hair, ect. which takes much longer. Although I may be up and awake, I still move much, much, slower than usual. Sometimes I have mytonia in my left leg and it tends to slow me down too. There have been times where I can get right up after a few minutes if I don’t allow myself to go into a deep sleep by basically depriving myself of sleep. It’s not guaranteed to work and doesn’t help most of the time. It’s also very exhausting, emotionally and physically.

So, if you can’t tell by now, it’s unpleasant, exhausting, and time consuming. I’m probably not coming to whatever you invited me to. Or maybe we can work out another time. Sorry, not sorry. ¯\_(˶′◡‵˶)_/¯

4 Comments

  • LaWana

    Thanks for sharing. Excellent excellent read!! When I’m rushing you and I don’t realize it’s the fastest you can move, politely check me. Let me know because sometimes I’m not paying attention because I’m focused on getting where we’re wanting to go.

  • Miriam R Breslauer

    I am HypoKPP too. When I need to be able to “wake up” and unparalyze faster than 2 hours after waking I need others to help me in the following ways:
    1) Bring me food and my medicine to my bed. Prepping food while weak will make paralysis attacks worse for me.
    2) Use a massaging device on the most painful and/or paralyzed muscles. This often requires a family member to help reach any muscle beyond my thigh muscles. The benefit of this is the massage can move the Potassium and Salt out of the muscle cells requiring less Potassium to be able to move.

    Some days are admittedly doomed. No amount of help is going to prevent it. However, the two steps above make even doomed days less unpleasant.

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