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Anxiety and Depression

Anxiety 

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An-xi-et-y
I started biting my nails again.
It took me two days to notice.
Pro-cras-ti-nate.
To make the endless insistent thoughts go away.
Bad grades
Because you spend so much time worrying, you begin to forget and lose focus
Ex-hau-st-ion
Every task is draining, no matter how small
Emotionally draining

Headphones in the grocery store to avoid social interaction
It’s the only way I can convince myself to get any shopping done
“Just keep breathing and breathing and breathing “
On repeat
Just keep breathing
Tears burning my eyes
And breathing-
Chest tightens
And breathing-
tightness
And breathing-
throat closing
You know I gotta keep-
choking on air
I keep on breathin

Depression

Depression, all one word
Suffocating…drowning…
A l o n e
“How are you feeling?”
T i r e d
always tired
Physically here, mentally at sea
D i s c o n e c t e d
constantly fighting against a current of never-ending consuming numbness
Wave, after wave, of responsibilities
Overwhelming.
There’s always something, a glimmer of hope propelling me forward
Barely keeping my head above water
Sometimes I can stay there for a long time, safely floating
Only to be struck again
Dragging me back under
I give up
Drowning, suffocating
Losing hope all over again
Something pulls me to the surface
A face, a friend

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